Masturbating my ?virginity? away
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I always thought the phrase ?pop your cherry? was meaningless. Maybe, it referred to a cock popping into the vagina for the first time? But, it definitely didn?t have a literal meaning. After all, no one had a cherry which could actually be popped. Did they?
It turns out, I was wrong. During my many masturbation sessions, I discovered exactly what the phrase meant.
One lazy day when I was home alone, I found a few naughty stories online which sent me wild with desire. I began rubbing my pillow ferociously. This delivered the most delicious clitoral stimulation.
I was in heaven
But, I needed more. I knew I was dripping wet by this point. So, I began inserting any small phallic shaped item inside me I could find. Pens, highlighters and even glue sticks came in handy.
One at a time of course. And I did wash them first, but even so, hygiene issues were always a worry afterwards.
Anyway, in the middle of my passionate moment, hygiene was the least of my concerns. I was too horny to worry about anything. Plus, I had become so wet, that for the first time ever, I was able to fit the handle of a hairbrush inside me. I rammed it inside excitedly. I was ready to climax.
However, as I pushed the hairbrush handle inside, I felt a barrier. There was something stopping me from inserting the handle all the way in. And impatient-me did not carefully and delicately explore as I should have done. Instead, I used brute force to ram the last of the handle inside.
I felt instant pain
So, I took the brush out quickly. I saw blood on the silver surface of the handle. I was scared. What had I done to myself? What if I had damaged myself permanently? My horniness instantly disappeared.
After a cooling shower, I tried to work out what could have happened. Google wasn?t a thing then, so I settled with a vague memory of a hymen and the ?pop your cherry? phrase. Both ideas made enough sense, to ease my worried mind.
As it happens, I was pretty much there anyway. ?Popping your cherry? refers to losing your virginity. Elisabeth Morray, a sex expert, explains, ?this is a slang expression that refers to a girl losing her virginity. In some cases, a girl?s hymen (thin membrane in the vaginal opening) breaks when she has intercourse for the first time. This can cause bleeding and is sometimes uncomfortable.?
What I didn?t know when I was younger, is ?popping your cherry? is not a guarantee when it comes to first time sex. Women’s Health tells us, a lot of girls tear the thin tissue which is their hymen, ?during gymnastics or from wearing large tampons. (But) if the tissue does tear during sex, you may find intercourse painful and experience bleeding.?
I like to be in control
So, for me, ?popping my cherry? with a hairbrush handle worked out for the best. It meant no one made me bleed but me. And I was able to explore my intimate area before anyone else got there. Plus, seen as though the pain and blood were more than I would have expected, I was thankful to be the only person present.
At the time though, my ?cherry popping? felt life-changing and deeply embarrassing. How could I have got so horny and reckless? I felt ashamed.
I didn?t even record the experience in my diary as I normally would have done. Instead, I pushed it to the back of my mind and hoped all would be forgotten. It was something I would never mention to anyone, for sure.
Luckily, as the years went by, the shame vanished and I realized how wonderful my masturbation habit had been. It allowed me to take my time with sexual desires and explore my body before anyone else. It was a beautiful, informative and confidence-boosting experience.
Masturbation is certainly not something anyone should be ashamed of. The NHS says, ?Masturbation is completely normal and extremely common. People of all ages masturbate and it?s often the first sexual experience they have… Although people may be embarrassed to talk about masturbating, you shouldn?t feel ashamed of it or guilty about doing it?.
For me, it?s one of the greatest joys in life, and arguably even better than a gooey chocolate pudding. Whichever way you look at it, it?s a free and easy way to climax on a daily, weekly or whenever you want basis. Happy days!